Turning 30 year’s old
It’s hard to believe that I’ll be 30 years old Nov. 18. Growing up…I always thought thirty was old. But I don’t feel old. In the past, no matter what age I was turning I always just felt like “‘Grace” nothing new and nothing old. I’m glad that I received the gene that keeps you looking young. Although, it doesn’t work in my favor at the high school campus in which I currently work. Sometimes it can be intimidating to have faculty and especially student’s thinking that your one of the kid’s. But I’m a little more relaxed with it more so than I use to be.
Trust…Peace…Contentment
It has been a difficult past 2 1/2 weeks after the death of my guitar partner (Sharon) in my RCC guitar class. It is not easy to say that my worst fear is death and the unknown. But because of the lost of Sharon my fear has brought more curiosity to my mind and I felt trapped in my own thoughts as I continued to let Satan mess with me for awhile. But I am not one to sit idly by and let Satan have his way with me. I put my proactive skills to work and began doing research on life after death. To my hope and contentment I stumbled upon an insurmountable amount of scientific evidence that even the #1 hard core atheist can not deny. I found numerous secular scientist’s and doctor’s who have done incredible research with NDE (Near Death Experience) on adults and children alike. One of the scientist (even thought not a believer) dared anyone to prove his findings of the souls existence after death to be erroneous. Needless to say, his website has been up for the past 8 years and still stands as irrefutable proof. Another scientist named Melvin Morse–a pediatrician and neuroscientist–studied NDE in children for the past 15 years. In one of his numerous scientific research studies he interviewed a little girl who had drowned and was clinically dead. The things she said she had experienced changed his life forever. While dead in the hospital, she said she saw another doctor working on her before her assigned doctor came in her room. She described him and the things he did explicitly. She also said she visited her family at home. According to her, her mother was in the kitchen cooking chicken and rice, little brother in the living room playing with a specifically described toy and her sister doing something else. Of course, all of this was found to be true. Then, she said she met Jesus and God. She said Jesus asked her if she wanted to go home. She said no–but then he asked her if she wanted to see her mother, and she said yes. And with the blink of an eye she was revived. In another one of his cases a little girl who had drowned and died was miraculously revived. She spoke of meeting Jesus and being told by Jesus that she had to go back and help her mom with her brother’s health problems. At the time her brother was not born yet. But when he was born he had heart problems. You can see her experience in her drawing on Melvin Morse website. Also, not to long ago archaeologists found a tomb that read, “James brother of Jesus…” There is a lot of speculation about if the tomb belongs to James, the brother of Jesus, whom we know to be our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Keep in mind that it was uncommon for tombs to have a brothers name on the tomb, unless his was a prominent figure of his time. These things are only a taste of the amount of irrefutable scientific evidence that I have found. After I gained contentment of their being life after death and that Jesus is waiting I felt like I had as the bible says crushed the head of the snake that is Satan. As I said before, I’m not just going to sit idly by and let Satan get the best of me. Even if I didn’t find any evidence I can’t see myself ever giving up my faith and love of Jesus Christ. I still believe that it is important for my faith to stand alone apart from the scientific evidence. It is important to have faith and trust Jesus to be who he said he is and what he has done for us sinners long ago. My verdict is…He is Real and Alive! And, He is coming again like a thief in the night…it will not be suspected!
What went wrong?
This has been a crazy week with so much going on. But there is one thing that tops them all. I enjoy going to my guitar and piano classes. There are only three people in the advanced piano class, including me. And, a lady (Sharon) who has been my guitar partner for the past year. Sharon and I have practiced together in a separate room for the past two semesters. When our guitar teacher was done teaching the beginning class he would then work with us alone. I thought it was strange that she didn’t come to class last Thursday. She is the kind of person that would never miss her guitar class. Our teacher thought it was strange as well. I told myself the only reason she would not come is if she were dead. This past Thursday I went to class and my teacher said Sharon called him on Sunday and left a message stating she was sorry she missed class last week–she had the flu, but was all better now and would be back this past Thursday. I waited for about thirty minutes and she wasn’t there yet. Then it hit me, I remembered that she was the person on my cell phone that was a mystery to me this past weekend. She just gave me her cell phone 21/2 weeks ago. I thought maybe she is angry because I hadn’t called her yet…maybe it was something I forgot we were going to do together. So I decided to call her house number and a man answered. I was surprised that he answered the phone because I thought she lived alone…I assumed she didn’t have a boyfriend. I said, “Hello, I’m Sharon’s guitar partner and I was just calling to see if she is coming to class tonight.” He said, “Sharon won’t be coming to class anymore–she past away on Monday, the day after she left the message on our teacher’s office answering machine. I was in disbelief…it’s not something you expect to hear when your just calling a friend or fellow student to see if they are coming to class. I immediately got up and when out to the beginners class and stopped my teacher in the middle of his lecture. I told what the man told me and Mr. Scarano looked at me in disbelief. He told the class to take a 10 minute break and he went with me to our practice room in the back. I called her house number again for my teacher and the same man picked up the phone. Mr. Scarano said, “I heard some bad news…please tell me it’s not true!” I could tell by his facial expression that he didn’t get the answer he wanted. Mr. Scarano worked with me in the beginning class and at the end he told the class what happened and if anyone is a believer to pray for her and her family. Mr. Scarano told me about how she loved taking her grandson to guitar performances. Her grandchildren were devastated. Apparently, the man on the phone was her ex-husband and he told Mr. Scarano it appears that she had complications with her diabetes in addition to having the flu. Sharon was a veteran and lost one of her legs a long time ago. She had a special prosthetic leg and foot designed for her mobility. Mr. Scarano was overcome with grief and shock. He said, “I guess God thought that was the end of her time here on this earth.” Driving home, all I could think about was, “I dont’ know if she was saved! I never told her about Jesus!” I felt so burdened by my lack of urgency to share who Jesus is with her that I couldn’t go home and be alone with my thoughts. So I went to the worship team’s band practice to alleviate the amount of shock and failure I was feeling. I didn’t know I would have a short amount of time to spend with her. I mean, she seemed fine 2 1/2 weeks ago. We were laughing about the name of our musical piece we were going to play together for our final. It was called, “the two Lutes.” I told her it reminded me of the movie, “Uncle Vinnie,” in the scene where the judge was trying to figure out what Vinnie was saying to the witness. He was saying the two ‘yutes’ when he really mean the two youths. She and I laughed so hard as we practiced and reminisced about the movie. Now, even more so than before I find myself feeling a sense of urgency deep inside of me to share who Jesus is with others and to give them the opportunity they deserve to know Him and be saved from themselves.
