It’s Amazing Grace

I’ve had a rough 2 1/2 months…to say the least. I was hospitalized for 8 days and begged the doctor to let me go home and deal with my sickness and misery. I felt alone, hopeless, miserable and like the light in me was dying. I’ve been nausious and vomiting 2-4 times a day for the last couple of months–at home hooked up to an IV and getting shots in the buttocks every 4 hrs. And you may ask why…but that’s a whole another story.
I haven’t been at chuch for about a month now, and I feel so far away from what feels like home. I decided to listen to sermons that I missed over the past several Sundays. After listening to the “The Visitation: Received” on-line at Sandalschurch.com and watching people walk up and some literally throwing the “crap” in their lives in the trash can, and hearing the band play and sing familiar songs–I broke down and cried. Why? I desperatly miss my church family. I miss playing my keyboard and leading others in worship. I miss being in the presence of others who I share the most important thing with–that is–”Jesus Christ”. I realize that I can still be around lots of people and still feel alone, if we don’t share that special connection between us–that is–Jesus the Savior and King”. I listened to songs of worship after listening to the sermon and began to feel so hopeful and eager to be go see my church family again–and I didn’t let how I was feeling ruin this moment of hope and joyfulness. I felt alive again…I felt loved my Jesus. Listening to songs like, “Majesty”, “From the Inside Out”, “Deeper”, “To Know Your Name”, “Marvelous Light”, Hosanna”, “All For Love”, “Cover Me”, “Father Can You Hear Me”, and even Moi’s, “Superman” inspired me to want to lift both hands as I lay on the couch (where I’ve been for the past month), and reach for the Holy Spirit to fill me with hope and joy.